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Black: Writing Extract

“Any inspiration I had has suddenly vanished to be replaced by a vast span of emptiness. Black surrounds me from head to toe. Black hair, eyebrows, shirt, fingernails, trousers and shoes. Black is what I’ve become. An entity of darkness to match my sunken moods.

I sit there staring at nothing in particular, but staring none the less. I try to conjure up anything except darkness and glimpse only the many textures of black. Shiny like newly laid tarmac, matt like a painted canvas, rough like the coals on an unlit fire.

There’s no explanation and no logical reason but it happens of its own volition. An immense void that simultaneously suffocates and drowns me. I reach with frantic, clawing hands that fail to grasp hold of anything to keep me from falling. I’ve learnt to accept it as a part of who I am.

At first it was overwhelming to be alone and you feel like nobody understands you. Then little by little you learn that no one can help you, even if they understand. They can only stick by you until you grow strong enough to drag your sorry backside back into reality…”

Written by Ling Lee (25/05/13)

I can’t focus but I’m not entirely sure why. I just know I feel physically exhausted and mentally drained. I’m waiting for the moment to pass so I can jump right back up and think in colour. I apologise for the dreary outburst but what needs to be done has been done.

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To 2013: A Better Year

Such a windy night tonight. It’s really late and really dark but I can’t sleep yet again.

I keep remembering my past, trying to understand the mistakes that I made so I can learn, and to grow into a better person.

I want 2013 to bring much happiness and joy to those I love and care for. I want to leave behind all my sorrows, troubles and mistakes in 2012.

In 2013 I will be more positive. I will fight even harder for my dream. I will push away the darkness that threatens to consume me. I will take opportunities with both hands. I will be the person I want to be and I will have a better year, for every year that I live on.

Let’s all have a positive and realistic resolution for 2013. Let’s all succeed in the things that we want to achieve. Let’s all support one another and all be successful in 2013.

To 2013, the better year! 😀

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The one who made me smile for Christmas

Thank you for loving me, for pulling me so close to you like you don’t want to lose me. Thank you for making things right, for holding me so tight that my feet are in the air. For supporting me with your all, your strength. Thank you for making me smile such a real deep happy smile. Thank you for reminding me of love.

Words can never describe the way you make me feel, the way you make me smile, the way it always feel right to be close to you. Another moment to add to my collection of precious little moments with you.

Today is Christmas. The most magical day of the year. Magic is as real as believing in your love. Magic is making what can never happen, happen.

It doesn’t matter that you hold her hand if I still hold a place in your heart.
It doesn’t matter that she sits beside you when I see you better across the table.
It doesn’t matter if she’s invited by you when it’s me who wanted you here.
It only matters when I’m not around you because I want her to make you smile and to laugh. I want her to give you the warmth and the love that you deserve. Because I still believe in my fate and my destiny, and all I want is for you to be happy.

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Writing Ideas: Still the Lost Girl

I wish I could be the sort of person who was always happy and optimistic.

I really want to write everyday. I want to have the time to chase my dream, but it seems I’m taking one step forward then two steps back.

When I have free time, there’s always a never ending list of things to complete, or I end up completely lost for words.
Then when my words are bursting from me, I can’t write fast enough to keep up. Then someone comes to disrupt my flood of words or another distraction comes my way.

I can’t decide if my attempted novel should be magical or dark and desperate. I can’t seem to think of a way to combine the two just yet.

I have a folder of writing full with random chapters that I hope to use one day. I’m unsure if I can combine it all into one big story. I want to write about gangsters, vampires, magic, depression, love, family, struggles, fate and destiny. I wonder where this next step will lead me?

The Lost Girl is definately still lost. Please come along and help guide me through my journey. Be a part of my writer’s journey. 🙂

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Thinking Out Loud: Never Give Up

I’m still thinking about my writing career. Today has been one of those days where my head was filled with doubts. But a great friend has now made a pact with me to never give up hope on our dreams.

How wonderful life is when someone believes in you more than you believe in yourself. When they remind you of the reason you wanted this in the first place! Thanks again my lovely. If I ever make my name on the best sellers lists I’ll be sure to call out your name 🙂 heck… If I ever even get published and up for sale in a real shop, your name will be in my book!!

Here’s the whole thinking out loud part…

Creatures: what can I do with creatures?
I’m guessing they don’t have to be ugly, they don’t have to be bad and they don’t have to be big. That leaves me with pretty, good and small. But that makes me think of fairies.

A place: I want to write about a place that doesn’t exist except in my imagination. But right now my mind has blanked on me yet again. Why oh why does writer’s block always kick in when I have a spare moment to write?

My character: I always write as a boy/male. Maybe I should try writing as a female this time?

I love using diary extracts as part of my stories so I guess I will keep to this idea. Maybe this could be my best known author trait?

I know I want to create a magical world, with fairies or vampires or sorcery. But I want my work to stand out so it has to be different.

I wonder what was going through JK Rowling’s head when the whole Harry Potter adventure escaped through her pen?

Any tips or pointer’s to get me off on the right track? Any comments are much appreciated. Many thanks for reading this far. Please continue to support me on my better blogs 🙂

Please also continue to just be a curious busybody taking a peep into my life 🙂 x

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Free Writing

The best way to beat writer’s block…
The idea is writing anything is better than nothing.

Nothing is important other than getting words onto paper. No correcting grammar, spelling or punctuation. Just write whatever comes to mind and don’t stop until u hit the time limit that u set before u start.

The point is to make you write no matter what the words might be. So that u can’t just be stuck in that state of mind thinking you have nothing to write.

Even if at the end of your set time limit your writing is useless. At least you had a session of writing instead of feeling down for being caught in a writer’s block.

Free your mind. Let your imagination take over. Explore an imaginary universe. Create magic, creatures, lands, animals, beasts, monsters. You may discover a whole new world that you never knew existed within yourselves.

Have fun, keep writing and keep sharing all x

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