“A shooting pain resonates through my temple, behind my eyes. Every moment I open my eyes I feel that throbbing beat, punching a rhythm inside my head. Tears pool and threaten to spill. I chide myself for being weak but the tears still fall, one silent tear after the other.
I can’t focus through the pain that’s pounding at me. A terrible pressure against my eyes. It feels like something inside my head trying to push out my eyeballs both at the same time. Blinding me so I never have to look you in the eye and let you deceive me ever again.
I know you so well that even if I were to be blind, I would know you by your footsteps, the rhythm of your breath and the scent of you as you walk past.
Who am I kidding? I let you walk all over me, lie to me, cheat on me, yet I still love you and would forgive whatever it is that you do. I believe one day you can change. After every mistake, every ounce of pain I endure, I know that people learn from their mistakes…”
Written by Ling Lee (22/01/13).
I really do have a headache. I also really do want to write. Every word that I get onto the page makes me feel like I’m doing something right. I feel like I was born to write. I just need to find the right path and look for support and guidance wherever I can.
Thank you so much for staying with me. Today I would like to thank CT, JS, Carli and Charlie C! The support you have shown me in the last 48hrs have been noted and much appreciated.
PS I wonder when I will stop myself from falling for the same mistakes that cause me pain? Yet without the pain in my life, I wouldn’t be able to express myself with so much passion.